My New Reality

This morning, I woke up and bought a bunch of plastic containers to begin sorting what we are keeping to store and what we are taking to Belize. I only filled one box full of winter clothes so far. I am constantly going through things to keep or get rid of. It really makes you look at your "stuff" differently. Like, do I really need to spend the money to ship this to a foreign country or ask my family to store it for me...for many years possibly. You end up deciding that a lot of stuff in your home really isn't that important. The other thing is when to sell stuff. We are having another big garage sale next weekend. I would like to get rid of a lot things just to clean house, but will our home look too empty when people are looking at it? And how to sell the big furniture? I don't want people trampling through our home...

But what is REALLY important? My friends. I spent the day with a good friend today. The heartbreaking part is how sad she is that we are leaving. Us? It makes me feel loved, but also so sad that my major life change is hurting her so much. I just wish I could take my friends with me. But that is not reality. So, the only answer is to spend as much time pouring into my friends before I go. We will have Skype, and will come home to visit, but I am just beginning to get the reality that is my new life.

God really blessed us today. A friend in a church in Dallas facebooked today and said her church is sending us a love gift and will be praying for us. It is such a blessing to already see the little seeds God is planting to take care of us. He is constantly showing me that He is going to take care of us. I know He will, but also accept any confirmations He sends our way.

This Sunday, we will announce who the new pastor will be. And I will only be working the next couple of months. I will begin training my replacement. I am excited to be free to be a mom. It is enough. I will miss my income. That will be a big adjustment for me, as I have always brought some income into our family finances. But yet, God is teaching me in a very real way that things just aren't that important. Of course, we must have money to survive, but my way of survival has become more than what is necessary. My life is getting back to the basics.

Every day my new reality sinks in a little deeper. I know when we go on the trip to Belize this summer, it will become very real. I am anxious to see the town we will live in. I have never been there. The training taught us about culture shock. I can only imagine how that will be, as I go through culture shock every time we go. And that is just for a week. I think taking ownership of Belize really being our home will help.

We just have a few more weeks of school. Then we will begin homeschooling in the fall. It is amazing. Something I have always wanted to do, but never thought I really could...But here we go.

My theme song right now is "Walk on the Water" by Britt Nicole. "will you take that first step into the unknown? You know that He won't let you go." etc. "Don't be afraid to move, your faith is all it takes and you can walk on water too." I remember when this song first came out and I had this huge thing that I couldn't share with anyone (us being called to move to Belize). I would just listen to this and cry. But God has done so much in me this last year. He has conquered fear in my life. Although my future holds a lot of uncertainties, I do know that God has never let us down. If He asks us to do something, He walks us through it. And going to Belize is no different. He will never let us go!!!